Good morning, everyone. Welcome to Jacoji and good morning friends online. Really wonderful, too. be with you, even at a distance. I like to always start our gatherings on Sunday by acknowledging. the original stewards of this land upon which the Koji sits, the Ohlone people. They are still among us. Their descendants are still here. They've been part of this. Land for over 10,000 years, not just our land, the entire Bay Area. Which should indicate to all of us what recent immigrants, all of us, are. ,000 year history of taking care. And this is their unceded territory on which Jacoji. So we vow in recognition of that. And thank them for their presence and their culture and their care. I hope that this acknowledgement is not just. More words, but actually an opportunity for us to recognize. The importance of recognizing each other and our various cultures, what we bring to each moment together. To live with greater awareness of all beings. And our precious. often unrecognized interconnection. And all the invisible connections that sustain us all. In the last two gatherings here. Well, my last few times giving a talk, we were contemplating the Buddha's second teaching, which was the three marks of existence. Those are impermanent. and suffering, not enough. And in considering last week, this. idea about not self. By the way, not non-self, not a negation of self. Not a permanent stable self. Um, I invoked a metaphor of Zazen, this practice that we have of sitting down. And letting the body and mind settle. And watching what happens. I invoked a metaphor of a mirror, that Zazen is a mirror. They're facing a wall, that's a mirror. You're facing yourself anywhere, that's a mirror. in the mirror of Zaza and in the mirror of your life. You see a variety of phenomena arising and going, including whoever this is. Whoever this is. In every given moment. And you notice that everything is impermanent in the mirror because it's moving, it's changing. You know this naturally. You are… Not the same person now that you were, maybe even just a few hours ago. But it's usually easier to see, like. 10 years ago. Not that person anymore. is still here. This is not the same embodiment. So this week. like to take that metaphor of Zazin. as a mirror into the garden. We're going… Uh, with the Zazin mirror. And I came upon a poem in this last week. It's from… I found this poem in a movie that I recommend. called Zen for Nothing. It's on Amazon. It's really lovely. And this poem. was in that movie. I'd like to share it with you. I want you to know that this is a translation that I kind of pieced together. It was written in the French, by the way. Kevin can read it in French, but… I pieced this version together from a few different translations. So in my talk, I might mention words that are not in this translation because there's lots of ways to translate. And this poem was written in 1946 by Jacques Prever. And it's called How to Paint. portrait of a bird. And I find it really an incredible opportunity, a real path it lays forth that is very consistent with our practice. of how to live our lives knowing that there's nothing in that mirror that's stable. in the mirror of Zazen, in the mirror of our shared existence. How do we live? this poem it's quiet way it offers us support. I'm gonna see if I can share it. Okay. Okay. See it, friends? So what I'd like to do, you can all see it too, right? What I'd like to do is have you… It's not very many lines, actually. So I'll start with the first line. And then I'm going to go to you. You can't see it. Okay, so I'm gonna… Really? Okay, I'll read it to you. Pretend like it's reading time. Just sit down, relax, puddle up. How to paint a bird's portrait or to paint a bird's portrait? First, paint a cage. with an open door. Next paint something pretty. Something simple. Something lovely. Something of use for the bird. Then put that canvas near a tree. In a garden. forest. Hi. say nothing. Don't move. Sometimes the bird comes quickly. But it can just as well take many years. for deciding. Don't be disheartened. Wait. Wait years to see. The pace of the bird's arrival bearing no relation to the success of the painting. When the bird comes. If it comes. Keep very still. Wait for the bird to enter the cage. Once it has. Gently shut the door. with the brush. Ben. Paint out the bars. One by one. taking care not to touch any of the bird's feathers. Make trees portrait. choosing the loveliest of its branches. or the bird. paint, likewise the green leaves. And the freshness of the wind. The dust, sun. And the noise of the creatures of the grass. In the heat of summer. Then wait. Until the bird decides to sing. If the bird does not sing. That's a bad sign. The sign hating is no good. That if it seems… That's a good sign. Assign, you can sign. In that case… Very gently pluck. One of the bird's quills. Write your name. corner. Thank you. So the poem begins… First, paint page. With an open door. Let's say that open-door cage. These are sitting. It's an open heart. As we take this upright posture in Zazan. We create a structure. Gotta sit up a little bit more upright. We could… we create this structure, this container. The door to our container must be open, wide open. It has to be one of radical openness. everything that can come may come without my objection. And then maybe you can invite. bird. Allow anything. landing did anything particularly show up? So when we sit down, we create. space for awareness. But we can't grab… The visitors that appear in our awareness. There's no grabbing. Think of a mirror. The mirror doesn't hold on to. bird flying by us hearing. Not even the shadow of us. This non-grabbing is actually… kind of mirrored in his story from the polycanon, from the Buddha's direct teachings. And this is a story about. I you guys know about… I was, um… they call a bark clad ascetic. So he was hardcore. He owned absolutely nothing in Houston. Clothing himself. The bark of trees. There's a bark at Ascetic. He was so hungry for the truth that he rushed into the road while the Buddha was out. You know, with alms on a begging ground. And he rushed up to the Buddha and asked the Buddha for her teaching. And the Buddha offered this. In the scene, let there be only the scene. in the herd. Over here is said to have… reached enlightenment right then. This teaching. So, as we sit, we notice. And our awareness, everything that is appearing in this mirror of Zazan. We see the seeing. hearing about a narrative, without any extra added to it. in the seeing, let there be only the scene. In the herd, only the herd. We don't try to keep and hold on to any reflection in the mirror of Zazam. It's like we stop interfering. With what's here or demanding that anything be there or pushing something away that we don't want to. Let me just stop interfering. And in that there is… Let's see… Just hear me. Without an overlay, without an opinion, or an assessment. That sounds awesome. Then the poem says, paint something simple. pretty, simple, beautiful, useful. For the bird. As we sit, we may notice this pretty simple, beautiful, useful thing called our breath. That's good. We're alive. Maybe… oh, they're pretty quiet today, you noticed the turkeys. The scrub jays. Your neighbor's breathing. shifting around. Just by sitting. Bill, you may notice our responsibility. To be here for the bird. Only in this moment. stripped of any pretense. The man be recognized, be seen. rather just be present. Next, the poem says, "Place that canvas near a tree. We're instructed to hide behind the tree. Without speaking. without moving. Sound familiar? Thousand. Not moving. When we stop. Having to be a somebody, even just for a few minutes. And we make ourselves disappear. poem in this tree, behind the tree. We start to see ourselves in context. of every… It's not the bird sticking out front. It's not us sticking out front. Great. Merging of everything. When we don't have to be the center of everything. We enjoy the context of being part of everything. And it's really enough. It's good to not stick out. be somebody. When we sit down, we're not. Improving ourselves. It's not a self-improvement project. We're not actually trying to gain anything, except in this moment, be in it. in your life the way it actually is. It's not very complicated. But as you may have noticed, it's not very easy. To be fully present in your own life. the hole. Phenomenal world arising. Then the poem tells us to wait. And says, sometimes the bird comes quickly. We can just as well take many years. This is painfully true. It can take a long time before. We notice. Quality of the vast. coexistence. In the painting, the poem encourages. A simple way without demanding that the bird appear. Hey Dogan is very famous in Sotoza, and he's considered the founder of Sotozan, 12th century monk. poet, priest, teacher, writer. He has a kind of a collection of writings called the Shobogenzo, and the very first. Classical is called Zandawa. Vandawa means on the endeavor of the way. And there's a very, very famous. section in this. Where he says practice and realization. are not too different. Practice immunization not to. And Japanese's concept is called Shusho Ito, or the oneness of practicing realization. And I think this might be Dogan's signature contribution to Zen. that it's not a separate thing to practice and have insight. Practice and realization. It's sitting itself is the enactment of realization or enlightenment, some people say. So in our poem, the bird is not a reward, it doesn't arrive at the end of the story. Not a reward for hiding behind a tree or being good. careful preparation of the… meeting, painting of the cage. making sure the door is open, the eraser of the bars, all of this, not imposing a self on the scene. All of this, that is practice realization. In other words. Sitting are sitting. is not the end. Not the reward, like the bird is not coming at the end. The sitting isn't a means. It is. Then the poem shifts and says. Wait for the bird to enter the cage. Once it has, gently shut down. When I read that line, it just went, no! felt like a betrayal. I know, don't cage. But the poet must know that we're going to respond that way, because right away, immediately, he writes. Paint out the bars one by one. Paint out the bars one. I know I breathe a sigh of relief. And I want the bird in the field. page, this container that we place ourselves to be fully awake in our own lives. It's not age. It's not meant to imprison. It's a temporary support. form. There's a Mahayana text. called the Diamond suture that also has a teaching that has to do with. Exactly what this is. This teaching is called the Mirror of No Abiding, and again, there's a very famous line from. In fact, this line I'm going to give you two translations. This line was supposedly something that our sixth ancestor in Zen Wenang. our… in our lineage. He's the sixth ancestor, so early on. Apparently an illiterate wedding was in the marketplace and he heard this. He heard someone reciting this line. on the Diamond Sutra, and he was awake. Then he became… on the path, eventually our sixth anniversary. And this is what that teaching is. Develop a mind that does not abide in anything. Or sometimes awaken the mind. Without fixing it. That's what we mean. Welcome up to his own life. our shared life. So developing a mind which does not fix or grab or hold on. tells us not to claim. Not to try to hold on to the cage. You know, it's easy to look at. You could do it in terms of identity. I'm a Zen practitioner. I'm a monk, or I'm a Brown, I'm a Browner, I'm a teacher. I'm fill in the blank, whatever you think of as your identity. Thank you. He built a cage of an identity. Now we're trapped. We all have to be courageous, almost brutally courageous. Honest. to erase bars. set ourselves, leave the door open. Again, a mirror does not abide in the reflection. This mirror of Zazan, any mirror, mirror-all mirroring, mirror-all mirrors. We don't grab it and say, you have to stay the way you were. We need you to stay the way you were. Likewise. You gotta stay where you where I put you yesterday. That was a good day. Doesn't work that way. If it worked that way, you would be dead. Practice would be good. We are not yet dead. And then the poet tells us, do not touch any of the bird's feathers. Then we're told, paint the tree's portrait. The green leaves and the fresh breeze, the sun's scintillation for the dust of the sun. So finally, we're told to zoom out. Oh, the bird's not the focus, I mean. Whole field of awareness is right in front of us. It's not just me in that mirror. It's not just me and you in that mirror. feel awareness here. Bird is no longer the center of the focus. Everything is one field. We see the bird. And the painter in context. Context is relationship. None of this exists right now, right here. Outside of relationships. You know this, you wouldn't be breathing but for the tree. Everything is in relationship. Endless, oh, arising. I think the poet is telling us. It's actually not bird over there and us over here. I'm going to make it very current. It's not Trump over there. Awesome. Even the things we find. Difficult. Oh, yeah. Not so. Everything is one… Continuous. looming field. All of you blooming. We are that. It is us. Now the poet tells us. The bird may not sing. The bird doesn't sing, it's a bad sign. And that's true. We know that feeling, right? In our own bodies, we know that feeling when things are not in our mood. This does not feel right. Something's out of whack. Not really… Right. Or it's not singing. We are not in harmony. All co-arising. Whenever we impose an I that demands that life deliver the what we want it to deliver, we are not going to be in harmony. things feel out of whack. And the bird won't sing. Notice them. Oh, it doesn't tell us to make the bird. You cannot make the bird sing. The Buddha used kind of a similar metric in teaching his son Rahula. There's a teaching where the Buddha says, he wants Urufula to use his mind. Like a mirror to inspect his heart. So before Rahula, his son, good. do anything with his body, speech, or mind, including how he would speak to himself. He had to inspect it. make sure it would not harm himself. Or anyone else. Only then, when he knew that the action. Through body, speech, and mind was beneficial. Go forward. And sing, right? The singing is simply a reflection. harmony. of your non-interference. Not of any particular great gift or knowledge or skill, but if you're willing to be completely present with what's happening. Tell yourself. Not as someone. Entirely separate from the context. Someone who is experienced. experience, experienced by. whole field. This is this willingness to meet what's here, no matter what's here. Honestly pages. Cohen then says. If it sings, that's a good sign. And in that case, very gently pluck one of the bird's quails. Write your name in the corner. It sings, that is a sign of alignment. That you're. In the whole mesh coexisting. It's a sign of your non-interest. harmony. Understanding. The song, the song. Peasants fact that the bird is singing. kind of proof of your non-interpretation. Your signature is proof of your non-interference. It's acknowledging you're here, too. It's part of this, not separate. The song itself? It's actually just life. Nothing special. Yeah, it is exquisite. And I don't know about you, but I live for that. It's a live just now like this. Right now. Oh, this poem is teaching us how to live. When we really understand. There's nothing permanent in that mirror. There's nothing permanent in the world. Everything is moving. Putting lives. How do we live? Full awareness. Never trying to avoid it. Get rid of it. Fully immersed in. this deep truth. Transient. The poem shows us live in the mirror. We show up. Quiet. We don't move. We don't insert ourselves, create an eye that needs to be recognized. I agree. Anyway. You sit in the middle of our messy, complicated. infused beautiful lines just as they are not demanding that they be different, not saying sing already life, sing for me. Just the way it is. We paint away the bars. As we no longer need to be seen something separate from this. The lights. As we develop the capacity to practice with our lives the way they are, not demanding that it be different. What happens is we get kind of wide-eyed, like a child. Everything's new. We look at every, even the repetitive things. We look at it like. What's happening now? What is that? Without pushing it away and without grabbing it and saying. Oh, I've been here before. You have not been here before. Amber. And we're not sitting there waiting for something. Not just in Zazen and or in our lives. We're just waiting. And notice that we are fully and completely and can only be here. In this moment, and then the next… It's intimate being with. We're doing right now. We can't stop doing Ember. But we look away. We get busy. Our minds take us elsewhere. But when we're completely open to being with. Completely with. carefully. Sharing the width. The time the bird sings. Sometimes we have a deep insight. awareness. The little consciousness. This shared life. It's incredible that we get to be here today. Right now, it's… Unbelievable, really. I mentioned in the beginning meditation there was a monk here one time who actually did the math. There are, like, 10 people in the room, 20,000 people had to live their lives exactly the way they'd live their lives for those 10 people to end up in the room at the same time. That's how miraculous it is. We are here. We're even alive. This awareness of the preciousness of our life, and the impermanence of it. Quickly it goes by. That insight. Precious understanding. does not come from a book. It does not come from knowledge. It does not come from any kind of strategy or calculation or proving that you are anybody. This one quiet. It doesn't even come from this. comes from this. This whole thing. It's this simple. face-to-face meeting with yourself. And that mirror is everything. So I hope you will continue to paint the page. An open door. the bars. That you will… Make a life that includes the whole field. Paint the whole field. Everything you see and that then you will trust the living expression, you're a part. All right. We will trust the living expression of your awareness. us your part. Big. enjoy song. Thank you for listening. It's all in completely different. I'll start with my friends online. I don't like it because you get forgotten. Anyone? Jack. What if the bird does not sing? Perhaps there's something… that you need to fix. Perhaps there's something you need to change in your life. Perhaps… you know, it sounds like… what you were saying sounds like you accept everything, right? But we don't have to accept everything. Are you suggesting that accepting everything means doing nothing? Right, so perhaps you have to explain, accept everything, so that I can understand that. that, uh… If you're in a bad place, you can get out of it. That kind of thing. Right. Thank you. That's a really very, very important observation. I don't want anyone to be confused that we're supposed to do nothing with our understanding and awareness. When I said we have to be brutally courageous and honest about what's in the mirror. That's the clarion call. Pay attention. What has to happen with what you understand from that mirror? is contextual still. Right? It's not like there's this little thread you pull out and it's ah! And yet, it means that you have to… Do something. Wholesome, even in the face of difficulty. So yes, go March! And the relationship. tell the truth about what's just happened. to you. the truth. You're not here to accept, um. It's not that kind of acceptance. That would not be wholesome. It's waiting for the truth to emerge. What? How you are to respond. the song sing, what to sing? How to respond. So just like Rahula and the Buddhist telling his son. Don't do anything. What you observe in the phenomenal reality of this wall and of your life. So you know that it is from a wholesome place. And we all know this in our own lives. You can end. a relationship. Love. Really, truly. Not necessarily the other person will receive it that way. That you can do it from a place of wholesomeness, right? all sorts of things can change. For the good is you're bringing to it. Deep understanding of interconnection. Yes? Yeah. It doesn't… it doesn't arise from any particular situation that I happen to be in. I just wanted to clarify that. It was just a general… clarification, but then… so thank you for that. Thank you, and I really appreciate this because sometimes I think people misunderstand acceptance. I don't even like to use that word very often because I think it's so fraught. They think they're supposed to take whatever comes. Oh, of course not. It would be like, you know, you know, throwing yourself in front of a bus. No. there is you, and there is a bus, there's reality. And we have to decide how to respond. Wholesome name. Wholesomely means not just. Um, knowing that it's not going to cause harm to you or to someone else, but from a place of calm, abiding. From a place of understanding. interrelation. Anyone else? I can't hear you. There you go. Can you hear me? Good. You know I'm a painter, an artist. And so I related to that poem very much. a landscape painter. We go out and play plein air painting, and I'm. My students, when I take them out. There's one thing I often. Tell them about painting. Little explanation here. There is the. Um… the surface of the painting is a plane. We call it the picture plane. Okay? And oftentimes we're drawing a little picture with inside of a frame. But what I say when we're out there. painting in landscape. We have this enormous landscape, usually. I always pick out great locations and the neighborhoods I live in is very much beautiful. And, um… So I say the picture plane doesn't start out here, you know. You know. But your picture plane starts. back here. So you put yourself into your painting in a way. You put yourself into the landscape, you feel and picture the whole thing. I call it. And that's promis in the term panoramic awareness. And the whole whole awareness of the whole thing. And you put yourself into the painting, into the situation, into the landscape. And, um… So in that way, the the bird is yourself. in the painting and the cage, the bird, the whole thing. It's all together. Yeah. So that's what I was thinking about when you read the poem. Thank you. You can help. came fresh moving over me. the canvas as you spoke. Thank you so much. Hey, anyone else online? Okay. Anyone here? Was that a bow? Do you want to speak? Yes. Hmm. Mm-hmm. I'm having trouble with the metaphor. Yeah, let's make it not… Let's make the… knew the painter. fitting field. mentioning that. This container. is canvas. Or maybe the wall could be the canvas too. You're not actually… inserting or making or producing. It's a metaphor for existence. It's you're waiting for a bird. The cage has to be open. Third is… notice. Everything is put in it. You don't actually have to do anything. To be fully in your life. And you don't even have to sit. You can drive down the road, you can eat a meal. can be completely in your life. Sneezing, brushing your teeth. in your life. And we have, we're doing a thing called 52 Weeks. If you want to join us, you can. It's on our website. And it's a mindful exercise every week, and the first week was something like, do something that you routinely do with your dominant hand. Do it with your non-dominant hand. And so I brushed my teeth. For a week with my dominant hand. This is a mindfulness exercise. It was really hilarious. Like, I didn't understand how the toothbrush worked. I have an electric toothbrush, and I was like, getting my cheek, I was doing everything. Like I was inept and by the end of the week, I got pretty good at navigating this thing. It was just so foreign to me. Because I have a habit energy that knows how to do this in my sleep, right? But when I do it this way, it's all new. It's all new. Like, I had to think about every single part of it. How do I do this now? It's so different. That's what we're talking about. At any point in your. existence. Stop, be still and be present in your life. It's the same as painting a Cajun paint with the door open and moving away the bars and watching what's here. What's here right now? What's actually happening? A baby, a young child with those big eyes going. What is this world? We don't have to make anything. It's all already there. You can't even make it. Well, I don't know about you, but I spend a lot of time. ruminating. that what I have to get done? I wish maybe I'd handled something a little differently. Or I wish someone else had handled something a lot differently. That's not really being in this moment. It's already happened. This hasn't happened. And where I am is right. Now, that's not to reject the lessons that could be learned from. Maybe thinking, I didn't handle that well or I need to go talk to this person about how this landed. It doesn't mean that we're supposed to be Jack. I would not say that. That would be like trying to pretend like a portion of the field doesn't exist. field exists. The whole thing exists. But to be… present with it with this kind of affection or caretaking kind of a grandmother had a nice grandmother or grandfather, or if you had a nice grandfather. That kind of loving attention to the things that come up that are difficult. Both there, there… You can take care of these things in the present moment. An easy example is that people get very identified in a harmful way with their history. All of us have trauma. I have yet to meet somebody. I've met a lot of people who said they have no trauma, and they get to know them, and they just tell me traumatic story after traumatic story, and I think, interesting. They don't want to call it trauma, but boy, that's. And it… nobody gets out of this alive. without some difficulties, and it's not because somebody, you know, is beating them, necessarily. It's because part of. being alive is that your needs are not always fully met. No, you can't really not a perfect equation. Anyone who's a parent already knows this really well. You put your whole self in and you do your best. And my kids turned out great, thank God. But it only had a little bit to do with me and their dad. There's a lot of other forces. So the point is, is that you can. Neat. What's here? full recognition of what's come before without identifying that. Right? I am not a victim of all that stuff. Yeah, that happened. And I'm not denying that happened, and it had an imprint, right? It made a difference to me. What do I want to do with that information about this person? I want to really understand it. Really, when I have deep… passion for this. Guess who else I have compassion for? Everyone that I thought was a bat. That's being in your life. It gets so that there isn't a me that's separate. Whole thing. And it's delightful to live there. It feels like you're so fully alive, even when it's uncomfortable. It's like rich. Understand? Thank you. It's a really good question. That's my take on it. Of course. Boy, I sure hope it's possible, else we're really doomed. Right? If we're not responsible for. Being able to listen. And really try to understand. what someone else's experience is. We are in the cave. We're in the cave. We're also seeking Nemini. But we're really suffering. We cannot hear. That someone feels so disenfranchised. So not part of the whole fabric. They're going to try to do something violent. Doesn't matter. Violence. That's not the bird singing. Uh, and… My experience, my own lived experience. The reason I'm here is, you know. I had a life before this. And I could be in that life. Like that. But the reason I'm here is because I've experienced what it is. To understand. That there isn't this separate from Trump. There isn't. I don't like a lot of what a lot of people do in the world. I don't like they're focusing on separation when it doesn't work. It just doesn't work. What can I do? I can do this. This is my offering of this non-I. That I can say, hey. In my life, I cannot say that you are not me and that I am not you. I will live my life that way, because it's true for me. It's just absolute truth. That there is just internet connection. You know, when I was a little girl, the first people walked on the moon. I was maybe 5 years old, and I watched it on Our Little Black and White TV. It was a life-changing moment for me. I've never forgotten it. My dad and I… four brothers, but my dad and I were the only ones there, probably because that was before school age for me. And I got to stay home from wherever I was supposed to be to watch this. And I said to my dad, there's these pictures of the earth, and I said, well, where are the country lines? Because I had a globe. And… and my dad said, there aren't actually country lines. And I said, What? Because I knew that there were people at war over country lines. And I to this day, cannot get my head around it because of the picture of the earth in space. How could we be so small? when there's that truth hanging in us. Yes. So… Um, I don't think that anything works except for… Allowing whole mess, doing our little tiny bit. Our open hand to the next person, whether or not we agree with them. Still kind of loving them because they are us. It's not a separation. And it's pretty hard. That's not an easy task. And, you know, boil it down to something very immediate and local. You know, you're in your workplace and your bosses. At you. You know, when you really understand. When you really understand. That person is now doing this at you, and you will have a first response. Instead of defending yourself and protecting yourself, you will look and say. Who's really suffering. That's how you will respond because you know that how that feels. You are that person. You have felt that. That's Trump. That's Netanyahu. That's all. Elon Musk, whose car I'm driving embarrassingly. It's us. us. So we're responsible for them. We made them. And we better take care of them. I think it's time. Do you have any more questions or comments or complaints? Um, we'll be up in the community. Thank you all for your practice. I know this was an unusual week doing the poem.